Posted in July 2011

Hurt

I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar’s chair Full of broken thoughts I can not repair.  ~ Trent Reznor, but also performed by Johnny Cash (my favorite version) I am not sure of the meaning that Trent had for these lyrics, and they might quite possibly have a different meaning for me.  For … Continue reading

Death by Suicide

Suicide is preventable, but sometimes people just do not realize that.  Sometimes I think people just ignore warning signs, as if it will just go away and the person will get better without acknowledging it.  It doesn’t just go away, and a person showing signs of suicidal thoughts should be taken very seriously. There have … Continue reading

Panic? Me? Nah!

“Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.” ~Leo Buscaglia Anxiety has posed a problem for me for a long time.  I have felt anxiety for a lot longer than I have depression, but it has not always been to the point of rendering me useless.  I used to … Continue reading

Let’s Get This Conversation Started!

Depression is a medical illness that can interfere with a person’s life.  It affects your mind, mood, and body, as well as sleep patterns.  The illness can affect how you feel about yourself, life, and how you think about things in general.  It can affect your relationships, and just about everything else in your life.  … Continue reading

Vulnerable, but that’s OK!

As the last week has come and gone since I started my blog,  I have dealt with a few feelings I have not felt before.  I have been very honest since the conception of this blog, which has been difficult.  My depression is not something I have ever been completely honest about.  I didn’t open … Continue reading

The Lowest Point

I am not proud of the things I am going to write about today.  I am not really proud of a few things I have written about in this blog, but it’s about honesty.  Honesty leads to healing, and that is what I am working on.  Not only for myself, but for someone who happens … Continue reading

No Motivation

I have no motivation today.  I suppose I must have some if I am writing this blog, since my goal has been to write one every day.  However, when it comes to anything else, I really could care less.  I just want to sit outside, read a book, and let kiddo play on the playground.  … Continue reading

Treatment, or Lack Thereof

Treatment is rather important in dealing and coping with depression.  Unfortunately for me, I did not seek treatment for some time after kiddo was born.  It all goes back to feelings of shame and fear.  If I seek treatment and tell the doctor how I feel, will they commit me or take my daughter away?  … Continue reading

Worthy

I would like to start by posting a couple of phone numbers for everyone.  These numbers are for suicide prevention lifelines.  While calling 911 or seeking help at an emergency room is best, these lifelines are there when you need help and need to talk.  If you are suicidal, please seek help by calling 911 … Continue reading

I’m Not Crazy!

Depression, along with every form of mental illness, has long been thought to be a moral failing, or a weakness in character.  Unfortunately, because of this stigma, only about two out of every three people seek treatment.  It is estimated that around 15 million American adults suffer from some form or level of depression (Statistics … Continue reading